Where are you and where are you going?
Where you are is only important as long as you let it be, just get off the couch and do something, only then will you will be able to see where you are going!
I have been much like the guy in this picture, proud of the past, feeling like I was still on top, while pushing myself further and further away from it, by guzzling beer and eating anything and everything. I threw my trophies away years ago, and I had boxes of them, I had been the best, and a great baseball player when I was a kid, all the way up to High School, but I quit, because I “grew up” , drinking and girls were more fun than baseball, and getting paid to play a game, never crossed my mind, baseball was for kids, and I was a man.
By the time reality caught up with me, I had stopped working out, and I had my first weight set when I was eleven, weight training was very important to me, baseball wasn’t, but, I had quit both of them! Since I wasn’t a baseball star anymore, the girls went away too, I was too busy working, and really needed a change, so, I joined the Army. Why? Because I knew I needed a good kick in the butt and felt that the Army could give it to me! History repeats itself, if you let it, and I did.
This time, it was not all my fault, I got hurt, to the point I couldn’t stand for more than about five minutes, the pain was and is incredible, I tried to train through it, I was not about to let myself get fat again, but, I did. Now, after signing up with the VA to get some help, and 4 years of CT scans, X-rays, and doctor visits, after being informed that my problem was permanent and would never go away, I had earned it, the neurologist told me. I had raced Mountain Bikes, downhill was my event, I had been a runner, trained at more than marathon distances, and now, I have the spikes growing out of my spine to prove it! The doctor told me that all the crashes, and pounding from running, not to mention the tonnage I had lifted in my life, had given me a spine that normally takes over seventy years to get, and that is a very active, almost crazy like Evil Knievel, kind of active, and had gotten fat on top of it all.
Once I knew my pain would never go away, I gave up hope that I would ever get back in the gym, or compete at anything ever again, I felt like the world had come to an end, all I had left was the glory days, pain pills, my computer, TV, beer and food. When I got hurt, it was stupid, I stubbed my toe, and in the jerking to keep my balance, I had done something, that still is with me, proof that you just never know. At that time, I was in pretty good shape, I am 5′ 7″ and then weighed 275 pounds with a 36″ waist, bench pressing up to 495 pounds, squatting up to 705 pounds, and doing dead-lifts of about 405 pounds, but, that was over, and I now weigh 282 pounds with a 50″ waist.
My biggest frustration, is now, my biggest motivation, every time someone tells me that if I lost weight, my back would feel better, I felt like punching them, because I was really trying, had cut my beer consumption down to almost nothing, a 12 pack a month, eating soup and vegetables and hardly ever any junk, but, I was totally inactive, pain was winning, and I knew that I needed more activity, but walking is my biggest enemy, so, what could I do?
I have decided to just suck it up, and get my fat self back in the gym, no matter how bad it hurts, and how many people look at me funny when I walk in the door! Walking, or even standing for more than a few minutes is out of the question, but, I can sit, and squats only take a couple of minutes per set, then I can sit and wait for the pain to subside before my next set. My doctor had used my anger, and embarrassment to motivate me, and I signed up for the MOVE program, I need to thank him. Now, I know where I am going! I don’t care about weight, I need to lose fat, and I know how to do that, get back to the iron!
MyFitVet.com What is it? Who is it” Why is it?
January 20, 2010 by CarpetGuy · Leave a Comment
MyFitVet.com is a site dedicated to helping my fellow veterans to either get in shape, or avoid getting out of shape. It is so much easier to just stay fit, than to get soft and flabby, and try to get healthy again.
Just so you know, I am a loudmouth class clown type. I am not a combat veteran, I served during peacetime, but, things happen and luckily the VA was there for me. I have the utmost respect for the doctors, nurses, and other people who work there, but, just as anything having to do with Government, it is too big to do, what all veterans wish it could do. In some cases, there is nothing anybody could do, except for us vets.
I served in the 80′s, Ronald Reagan was President, and at that time in my life, I had no plans on relying on the VA for anything, I just knew I would be indestructible and young forever. I was wrong. Now at 47, with over three decades of weight training experience, I find myself having to start all over again, and have joined the MOVE Weight Management Program for Veterans. After the initial questionnaire, a brief orientation, and my first monthly meeting, I found out just how limited the staff is by the rules of Government. The sad part is that it is understandable.
I was expecting some sort of fitness program, fitness evaluation, bodyweight analysis, or something, in fact, anything, but, I was again wrong. Here is what we did.
- We took turns reading a cute story about the holidays and all the food we couldn’t eat.
- We took turns reading a story about a woman who weighed 680 pounds and lost weight.
- The nutritionist asked us a few questions about the stories we had read.
- We asked a few questions, about various medications and their interactions with certain foods, and discussed it.
- Us newbies were given a pedometer.
- We left.
I think I was expecting it to at least be a bit like an AA meeting where we newbies had to stand up and say, “Hi, I am David and I am a Fat-Ass!”, or something, and then the others would comfort us saying that they were fat too, but nope, nothing. Before the group broke up and left, I couldn’t hold back, I had to ask! “Why is all the emphasis on weight, and not body fat?” “What about measuring us?” I mean after all, just because we are heavy, doesn’t mean we are solid fat, right? If we had a body fat measurement, we would know if our various excercise programs, which are up to us to come up with, were actually reducing fat, or burning muscle instead!
I was basically told that an electronic body fat measuring device had previously been requested, but, that was as far as it went, none was ever received. To this, I was almost ready to explode, and said, “Hey, a caliper is cheap, just a few bucks, I’ll buy one if it will help!” I was then informed that a caliper test was inaccurate. I said, “This is true, but, something is better than nothing, right?” To this, the nutritionist said, “The VA does not have software to track this information” Again, I said, “I’ll buy it and bring in my laptop, if someone here will do the measuring, I will record it and print it out”, by now, our MOVE class doctor had already left, and the group was gone. Was it that no one in the class had an interest? I don’t think so, they just saw that my line of questions went nowhere and that the point was obviously mute! Again, I do not blame the staff, their hands tied, kept in check by the big bureaucracy of the Federal Government. You remember the $700 hammer?
With this, you can bet, by the next meeting, not only will I bring the caliper, software and laptop, but, my camera, tape measure and the instructions on how to do it as well! In fact, I have already found the ideal application, complete with instructions, it will cost me like 40 bucks!
Now you know what MyFitVet.com is, who it is, and why it is!